Thoughts – Impostor Syndrome

A fellow librarian talked about a conference she recently attended.  She mentioned she went to a talk on impostor syndrome.  A feeling (or a syndrome) I have been feeling for as long as I can remember.  Am I good enough?  Am I smart enough?  Am I enough at anything?  And let’s be honest, am I pretty enough?

Merriam Webster examples the term first appeared in the article The Imposter Phenomenon in High Achieving Women: Dynamics and Therapeutic Intervention by Pauline Clance and Suzanne Imes: :

The abstract starts by saying: The term impostor phenomenon is used to designate an internal experience of intellectual phonies, which appears to be particularly prevalent and intense among a select sample of high achieving women.

When do you start to feel like you are not faking it anymore and start to feel like you are a natural?   A natural at the whole being a person thing.   Or is that feeling as mythical as a unicorn?

I’ve read a lot of self-help books (here are three that have stuck out) and each one of them has helped in way, yet I cannot seem to shake the feeling of being an impostor.  A faker.  A charlatan.

Lean In taught me its okay to play like the boys:

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Big Magic taught me its okay to be creative:

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Get Your Sh*t Together taught me to keep track of my keys (most of the time):

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I know the saying fake it until you make it.  But what if you are tired of faking it and just want to let your freak flag fly?    How do I find the real me?  And how do I show the world that person?

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Reading Funk – Lost My Mojo

I barely read the months of April and May.  The stack of books behind my bed on my window seal has continued to grow and yet I haven’t even bothered.  I have thought about picking up books multiple times and there the pile remains untouched, overdue and dusty.   These aren’t just any books – these are books I have been waiting for months to come out.  Yet there they remain.  This happens sometimes – I lose my reading mojo.  Is it the famous librarian burnout?  Maybe.   Is it me spreading myself too thin? Perhaps.  Reading has been put on the back burner, which makes me sad to write and yet when I think about picking up a book I just shrug – maybe tomorrow.   If you find it let me know!  Instead, I have been working on my Python skills, Spanish language skills, and honestly watching a lot of Westworld and Handmaid’s Tale. What things do you do to get your reading mojo back?

 

 

Birthday Book: Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

“I declare after all there is no enjoyment like reading! How much sooner one tires of any thing than of a book! — When I have a house of my own, I shall be miserable if I have not an excellent library.” – Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen 

Every year since 8th grade, I have reread Pride and Prejudice for my birthday “week.” A total of 15 times. Each time I read it, I leave with something new and yet the same comforting feeling of something old and familiar. Pride and Prejudice has guided me through friendships, romances and learning to be an independent person. It has taught me that it is okay to say no, even when your family expects something of you. To say no when someone pushes it on, not believing you the first time due to your gender.

“Really, Mr. Collins,’ cried Elizabeth with some warmth, ‘you puzzle me exceedingly. If what I have hitherto said can appear to you in the form of encouragement, I know not how to express my refusal in such a way as to convince you of its being one”. – Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen 

I have collected copies of Pride and Prejudice since my first read.  Each copy having different covers, footnotes, and even languages.  I have around 40 copies now; each of which I love something about.  Yet the copy I come back to each time is the the one I read the first time.  Covered in highlighter, chicken scratch and held together with neon pink duct tape, this book is my birthday week companion, and I cannot wait to start it again this today for what I hope is a most excellent year.

 

I will leave you with my favorite quote – one that I need to remind myself of this upcoming year

“I must learn to be content with being happier than I deserve.” -Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen 

Books made into TV Shows

I have a confusion to make…
One that is often not a popular opinion in the library world (at least in mine). I love when books become TV shows. I get where people and my fellow librarians are coming from when they say “BUT THEY RUIN THE BOOK.” Sometimes the TV show is different than the book. Sometimes the TV SHOW is wayyyyy different than the book. Sometimes the TV show sucks.
But when it does go right, and people who are typically not readers might just decide to pick up the book and maybe even try to find books that are similar to those books. I see it as a significant win. You cannot make people read. You can try, but trust me when I say it may or may not work. I date someone who get this has read a single book for every year we have been together. AN ENTIRE THREE BOOKS! Yup, that’s it. Three. I, a librarian who reads at least 65 books a year (on a slow one at that) dates someone who reads a single book a year.

Why then do I love TV shows that are from books?
TV shows can motivate people to read books! The book becomes less of a scary item and more of something familiar. Something that lets you become a real fan!

Here are my favorite TV SHOW BOOK COMBOS:

What are your favorite TV/Book Combos?